time takes a cigarette

just had a long, funny video chat with an ex-girlfriend of mine. hadn’t seen her since we were dating in 2005. it’s interesting, because i’ve always been the one to break up with the other, but i think with her and i it was kinda mutual, cause we were constantly fighting. i also seem to have a pattern of breaking it off with every girl i date without warning, obliterating their feelings via silence, and doing everything i can to avoid ever having to hear their voice again. but she and i talk, not because either of us are trying to get back together or anything like that, but simply because we actually get along and probably would have been friends all these years if pseudo-romantic bullshit weren’t in the way.